I'm Back...

Encouragement can come in many forms.
Sometimes it is in honest words of a friend, loved one, or some courageous individual that help us make a course correction away from poor behavior,
self defeating attitudes or worse.

Those words have been spoken to me a few times lately in a variety of ways.
I believe in fact that those doing so had no idea the effect they had on me in those moments and later when I reflected on it.

In the course of my life I like everyone else has had my share of failures, disappointments, unfair circumstances, etc
whatever you want to call them or label them.
At those times I was connected tightly with whatever situation it was.
Besides feeling the loss, having nothing, I felt nothing.
In those times, the downhill slide can be a slow, painful decent or
more like a rocketship to hell with amped up behavior.

For me the wake up call was through an individual who works in the
same office as myself who made some comment regarding
my production numbers and he was concerned about my attitude.
I work in the financial services industry, and while there has been
some tough months for all of us on both sides of the table,
it's a profession I love and am very good at.
In saying that its also the type of work that leaves me with
only two things I can control.
Yes for someone with a dominant personality, and demeanor it can be quite trying! LOL

The only things I can control are my attitude and my activity.
I can't control my potential clients, the market, my current clients,
underwriting & suitablitity departments etc.
For someone who always has control of it all, my life, my career, my relationships, etc. it can be frustating when it all doesnt work as I want it to.

Insight and knowledge comes only when one is open and ready to accept it.
His comments had left me feeling vulnerable, yets willing to accept it and look deeper into it.
I soon after got a massive blinding glimpse of the obvious.
So life has been unfait to me lately. So what?
Am I the only one, hasn't it unfair to many of us, millions of us?
Have many of them not faced far worse circumstances? Did they accept defeat?

My reactions lately had been to be a victim and to stay a victim.
My behavior of excuse making ,blaming, and at times finger pointing I'm sure,
was in fact getting me nowhere.
At one point I recalled one of my Marine Corps Drill Instructors
who at that moment was only inches from my face,
his face red,intense, focused, screaming at me "You Must Not Fail" JACKPOT!!

I now have that printed and posted in numerous spots around my home and office to remind me constantly of what it is I need to do.

Whether in business, or personal matters I will not fail, and it's working.

I had my best month of business in July, in fact my best month all year.

Personally, I've moved on with home projects finished a few, and continued to write here, visit other blogs and devote time to read and get to know them as well.
I wasn't completely comfortable with some communication with other women
feeling I wasn't over the loss, & not sure I wanted to jump back in the pool so soon.
In the last month, I've done more "swimming in that pool" and it's great to be back being the man I am and feeling good about sharing that with others.
I am excited for each and every day and the possibilties out there.
Bring it!!! I will not fail.